At church

I'm at church by myself. No one is here because I played this week, but its boring because no one is here. There's nothing to do. Battlestar Galactica premiers friday and I'm so FRAKKING PUMPED! Oh yeah... but stupid play auditions are on the same day and they go really, really late. So now, I have to watch the premier taped at like 1am. AND IT'S A TWO HOUR PREMIER! Frak me.

The Kite Runner

If ever I've read a book that really left me with such a moving feeling, it's Kite Runner. It's probably one of the most touching books that I've ever read. It started as an annoying summer reading book, but now its easily turned into one of my favorite books ever. It's about a boy, Amir, and his struggles with his Hazara friend Hassan. The story takes place in Afghanistan. With the "Hazara" ethnic block between them we see a blood struggle of friendship and forgivness. It's definitly not the happiest book, but once you read the whole thing you just get this feeling of renewal and forgivess. If you like a good read, better you an amazing read. Go pick up Kite Runner.

Probably one of the best books I've ever read...
Mike

(p. s. you guys probably won't take this post seriously and say random things like "durka, durka" but this is one good book)

I should be doing my summer reading...

Series 1-8
[ series 1 ]
Name: Michael J. Lauckner
Birthday: June 11
Birthplace: Saginaw
Current Location: Saginaw
Eye Color: Brown/Green
Hair Color: Brown
Righty or Lefty: right handed, and if your left handed... all i'm saying is don't be surprised if your in my genocide.
Zodiac Sign: Geminon (definitly a one of the twelve colonies of Kobol... BSG)
Font: Times New Roman... duh.
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[ series 2 - your favorite ]
Music: Originality (And no... that it isn't a genre... but it should be)
Cartoon: Simpsons?
Color: Blue
Car: Anything that moves.
Slushy Flavor: Don't care... I don't drink slushhies (*slushy's... no, i don't care).
Magazine: The Official Battlestar Galactica Magazine
TV Show: BSG! BSG! BSG! Battlestar Galactica
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Dumb... Dumb... Dumb...

[Delete] [Error... does not computer] "Shut up, I'm the boss," said Mike. "Anyway this is a waste of my time. Congratulations Abigail and Kierstin... you've officially wasted about 25 mins. of your life that you could be praying."

-Mike





BSG RULES!

Want

I think the word "want" is sometimes used in a negative way. And come on, its sometimes one of the most selfish words ever created. But I think the word "want" is very important in the Christain faith. It's one thing to know you should love good, you should read the bible, but I think you need to want those things for it to work. You can't be a christain while knowing you should love God, you have to want to love God. I think sometmes we forget that. We always know that we should love God, but we don't carry it through. We just live our lives in the distance, hiding from him. We don't care what we do sometimes. With sin, sometimes we forget about our role as a follower of chirst. And other times we truly are trying to get rid of the sin. But in the other circumstance... when we forget about trying to follow God it shows that we don't want that love. And that's not always the circumstance, but wouldn't you try to abloish your sin if you truly wanted to follow christ? And obviously we don't always act like this. I think we forget sometimes that we need to want to love good, we need to want to read the bible. Because if we use it as a term of, "we should read the bible." It's less attractive. Yes, we should read the bible. But as a christain, shouldn't we want to read the bible to delve more into our faith, to have a better undestanding of the lord? I think so... i think we need to want these things. Because if we don't want to love God, we just know that we should... we've forgotten the beauty of the lord. He died for us, to save us... the least we could do is love him. I mean truly want to love him.

Now that was just the explanation for what i want to show you guys. I wrote a song, and yes it seems like that happens a lot. I think people have been inspired in the past couple of weeks. Anyway, it's not anything for anyone to really ponder over. It's just something thats really been going on with my life. This is a song for me, no one else. Though, you might find it realtable. But it deals with my discovery of wanting something, compared to knowing that i should want something. It's pretty self explanatory... but here it is. And im not expceting comments. I mean their appreciated, but i want honest opinions. I don't want fake things to make me feel good. If you disagree with something tell me, i want to know what you think. I recorded it too. Please listen... http://www.purevolume.com/michaeljlauckner.

here, here i am
standing silently
and i think
of what i've become
and truthfully
i haven't changed
i still remain the same

yet it's not who i should be

i, i should not hide
longer than i
have from you

i, i should become
one that is changed
changed by the beauty

how can i show myself
when i know what i've done
i've hid my face
from a power i do not know
i've hid myself in the crowd
amongst the beleivers of the name
calling myself one of them
while breaking our sacred bond

yet it's not who i want to be

i don't want to hide
longer than i
have from you

i want to become
one that is changed
changed by the beauty

-Mike

"Easy" or "Hard"

Sometimes the easiest things are the hardest. Think about it, apply it to yourself and you might see what I'm talking about. When you apply an example to this equation it makes sense. Sin, in your head it's easy to grasp. You say to yourself, "I can do this." It's that simple... stop the sin and don't look back. But as we know, that "easy" situation turns into one of the hardest battles of your life. An easy answer of "no" transforms itself into a battle of the mind. A battle with God. We say to him, "I want this... I want to feel this way!" And I think a lot of times we know when we're committing a sin. When we're committing that horrible act we think about God. We know that there is always a way out, but will we take it? And then that easy situation comes back to us. Just a simple "yes" or "no". But it's not that easy. It turns back into that struggle. And yet again that easy thing doesn't seem so easy anymore. Yet the truth is, no matter how much we think about, it is that easy. We as people turn it into something that's "hard". Sin, in my opinion, doesn't have to be a hard thing. Yet, it probably always will be. The human mind tends to lean toward it. When all it has to do is a simple action of leaning the other way towards God. And the easy way takes committment. And sometimes we're not ready, or we won't let ourselves be ready for something like that. God takes committment. But when you can't keep a committment it's not so easy anymore. I made a committment... i want to keep it. But something that is so easy to grasp in my mind, is one of the hardest struggles of my life.

Mike

P. S. This probably didn't make any sense. I'm just sort of trying to get my idea out on paper. Do you disagree with what I'm saying? I'm not really sure if I fully understand what I said... or maybe what i said truly doesn't make sense. And this isn't suppost to be a downer statement either, its just sort of a realization. Wow...

WIND, RAIN, and ABIGAIL!

We're trapped in my house. Me and Abigail. The Hopevale softball games were cancelled! And we ran (drove) home. It was intense. That's all im saying.

I'm Back

To put it simply... I'm back from Washington. It's been a good trip but I was ready to be back. I missed you all. Now look at this picture of my neice.










Now, look at this picture of her... isn't it cute:







Um... I swear thats an authentic picture of her ultrasound.


-Mike